"Nine months of pregnancy
and
Nine months after pregnancy"
"Sometimes the baby in my belly is agitated, hits and moves like the Danube waves. He pushes, contracts, and looks like his silhouette is visible through my tummy. It's like a cat playing with a string and sometimes sits quiet, and it's like a fish hiding in the water after the stones."
"Now, I keep my baby in my arms, and he pushes my veins and organs, and I feel a bit of my life since he still had an intra-uterine experience."
"Today, in this world, there is a fragment of me, my baby detached from me, and I feel how we are separated."
"After giving birth to my baby and standing alone in the resuscitation salon, I felt naked, alone, sober, deserted, but today I Iive indescribable happiness when I hold my baby in my arms when we go together and look at the sky, the sun, and the earth. I love him when he laughs and when he comes to me and hangs on me to take him in my arms."
"During this experience, I experience three states: before I was pregnant, during pregnancy, and when I become a mother."
"If then, before I was pregnant, I felt Lonely; now, during pregnancy, I experience how I hear two hearts in my body."
"Before pregnancy, I am inducing a state of well-being and security, and now that I look back, I realize how much my previous attitude counted for my health and that of my child."
"During my pregnancy, my fetus hugged me from the inside. Now, after the birth of my baby, it embraces me in the light."
"In the first month of pregnancy, when I find out about my pregnancy, and everything is okay, I experience great happiness."
"In the second month, I feel that my pregnancy gives me strength in the face of unprecedented problems until then, and I firmly believe that if I weren't pregnant in those troubled times, I wouldn't have been able to handle those sad situations at all."
"During the day, in the third month of pregnancy, I eat like a mouse.
I feel now because I'm pregnant that I have sharp feelings. I often look around me because I feel like there are dangers everywhere. I think I have become much more attentive to everything."
"The doctor says I have a fourth-month-old fetus, very cheerful, and with a strong personality.
At the moment when the doctor puts the ultrasound on my stomach, he sees my fetus is hiding his head in the placenta. He gives you the impression that he has a hat placed on his head and even over his eyes.
I laugh at happiness when the doctor talks to the fetus when he does the fetal measurements.
I started to feel my fetus more and more. He's shuffling over there, walking around. These feelings are gorgeous.
It's a miracle in my life! I feel him moving."
From the fifth month of pregnancy, I can not sleep because my fetus "swims."
"I experience other states in the 6th month of pregnancy. I feel like my baby deserves everything. Knock Knock. The baby is awake."
"Starting in the 7th month of pregnancy, from 28 weeks of pregnancy, I feel like I can not stand in vain, and I have to prepare the nest for my baby, but I feel my baby will be born on time.
My fetus is scared of any noise. If I start to tremble, in the next second, my fetus also starts to jump.
Oh, I shouted. I fried my right hand with too hot water, and I started to have pain, and after a few seconds, I thought I would not pass my condition to my baby, but after a few seconds, he also began to tremble.
I also notice that the baby in my belly loves music a lot. When I sing a song, the fetus moves on the beautiful music."
The 8th month of pregnancy. "32 weeks. I get very heavy, hard breathing. I feel the placenta climbing up under my chest, and when my baby moves, I feel it pushes up to my heart. He stays head down on the right. The legs hold them to the left, and I think them painless. I'm sleeping on the left because the physicians recommend that. He moves his hands very strongly, and I feel one of my fetus's hands under my liver. My stomach was moving like some frequent and powerful waves. When he moves his other hand, I feel pain at the navel, and the skin has stretched so hard in this area and is so thin and hurting. When he moved and lifted his head, I felt the need to sit down.
I try to calm him, putting my hands on my stomach, but as if the fetus recognizes my hands and starts to hit even harder.
Between 16.00 and 23.00 hits with indescribable force, holds me captive.
I tell myself that I will resist and let the fetus sit in my belly as long as the baby wants. At this time, he will take as many vitamins and as much power from me as possible. He will develop very much for extra-uterine life.
I fell asleep for a minute, and I flinched, and immediately, my fetus began to move sharply.
You say my fetus kicks his hands in the wall of my belly from one side to the other. So, it hurts very hard my skin and my navel.
The fetus is under the left coast, and I feel like it kills me.
I can not breathe, because I have contractions and I can not do anything anymore. When he's playing like a cat in my stomach, I feel like I'm going to fall because of pain."
The ninth month of pregnancy. "On the way to the hospital, I start crying because I realize it was just a false alarm, and I had false contractions, and the little just played more than usual. Now my fetus was so quiet, and I felt so guilty for going to the hospital as if you said I was taking my fetus like a lamb for cutting and going to the hospital.
During this time, the pain was unbearable. I was experiencing tears, panic, fear of anything new. I was struggling. In the next few days, I anoint myself on my stomach with olive oil. I calculate the fetal movements.
Then I continued counting the days, 8, 7, 6, 5 ... 1.
It seems that a horse is playing in my belly. My fetus gives me one or two strokes, and then like a scared rabbit is withdrawing so that nobody could catch it.
In this last phase, anyway, we can not go any further. My fetus does not take place anymore in my uterus, and I die of pain.
I liked most of the second trimester of pregnancy. During the first trimester of pregnancy, I lost weight and vomited continuously. In the third trimester of pregnancy, I 'eaten beating' from my fetus, especially during the last seven weeks of pregnancy.
When my child understands, I will tell him what I felt, lived, experienced."
"During the birth of my baby, I live a mixture of sensations, from fear, tremble, agitation, and restlessness throughout delivery, to intense emotion and tears to the sound of my baby's voice.
I'm starting to tremble from the beginning. The fact that the doctor who is following my pregnancy from the very beginning is here gives me confidence and courage — also, the desire for a great and unexpected meeting with my baby. Otherwise, I can not focus on anything but how to master and how to resist.
At one point, a state of restlessness encompasses me, and I wonder why I do not hear the baby, and I'm scared because I do not know what's going on. Then I listen to him cry, and I look forward to seeing him.
I feel a strong emotion because the doctor brings my baby dressed in white.
The doctor holds my baby with his head resting on his right shoulder. Then I want to look at my baby, to see how it looks. There is a word that a newborn baby has red skin with sores because of amniotic fluid. And it is also said that the newborn has plenty of hair and resembles an older man in the family.
When I look at my baby as it comes to me in the doctor's arms, I see a dear person in my family, in miniature, and it has pink skin, no trace of hair, sores, redness, skinned or of the figure of an older man. I have never seen a baby so proud and with a nose in the wind. I start to cry and kiss my child often among the tears, and the doctor tells me that my baby has managed to make me cry because of the emotion.
I am glad that my baby has escaped well and is safe.
I still can not even articulate two words. I look just a little on the ceiling and see how my body projects in the glossy material, just as you look in a mirror and see blood.
During the birth of my baby, when I do not think about my pain, I hear some parts from the discussions between the doctors.
Finally, the doctor says I'm ready, and I start crying.
I'm crying hard while two nurses carry me to the intensive care room..."
The first month of the baby's life
"The baby and the doctor appeared in white. My baby is so proud and seems to be moving in the neonatologist's arms, like a leaf. It looks like a dear person in the family. I start crying and cover my baby with many kisses.
Most of the time, my baby and I rest together and look at each other and try to get used to this new life. He, in turn, with the distinction of the forms, then the colors, then, in time, with the recognition of the people, and I am exploring a field unknown to me, maternity.
How does my baby recognize that I am his mother, or maybe he sees anyone else as a possible mother? NOT. The baby recognizes me as his mother, after the heartbeat, by the voice, and he knows for sure that I am his mother.
We are exhausted after this attempt, we both adapt to something new, we eat, we sleep, we cry, and I hug my baby without saturating at all. The baby is studying absolutely everything, although I do not know precisely how he sees and how the outside world seems to him. I know for sure that he's curious because even though he does not yet hold his head, he rotates him all over the room, being helped by me.
When the nurse brought my baby to the intensive care room, this time, my baby so fragile opened his eyes small.
After birth, I was helpless, and I could not do anything, I needed help. I was addicted to others. After the birth experience, I have learned that everybody has a personal pain threshold.
On the third day of my child's life, it seems to me that my baby is so long, and I think how he stayed in my uterus? I remember how, from the eighth month of pregnancy, he was searching for the place, and how, every day, he struggled hard in my belly.
He eats at three hours and sometimes falls asleep between meals, and occasionally sit between the hours of lunch and cry in.
Today, I did two things the same with my baby. First, we were able to sigh at the same time, when I was holding his bottle, and he was drinking his milk. And, the second common thing, we were able to express our non-verbal desire to fall asleep, both of us at once."
"I experience post-natal depression. I'm depressed, and I feel naked without being pregnant. I do not have my pregnant belly, and I can not feel my baby's life through me anymore.
Although my baby is next to me, I feel depressed, because we were detached
All sorts of feelings are mastering me, and I'm just crying because I can not get away with these feelings.
The birth happened so quickly, and it seems to me that I did not even give birth, and I still wait. Everything happened so fast, and I did not realize anything but pain."
The second month of the baby's life
"If I cry, my baby feels and wakes up crying and calls me into his room.
I dance with my baby on "the Scarborough Fair Piano ballad." We look at each other and smile.
It's so beautiful and strange, as my baby stays precisely where I was asleep when I was pregnant with him. He's sitting with his tummy and head down, just like in my belly.
Today I'm taking pictures of my baby, who has the look of someone in my family as if you put on his face the mask of that dear person.
I'm sleeping beside my baby. We both feel exhausted because we both entered a new story."
The third month of the baby's life
"I sometimes feel like my baby is the only one who understands me, and the others do not understand me at all.
When I go to buy for my baby - festive clothes, I went out for the first time without my baby, since I gave birth to my baby and I miss him very much. I hear my baby on the phone, and I melt of emotion and feel the lack of him. I think that without him, I can not find my place.
If my life were more important than the life of a child, even strangers, I would not deserve the name of a mother's. You otherwise feel when you become a parent. I would die if my baby did not exist or if, for a moment, I am not near him. My life is insignificant beside my baby's life.
I feel and see how my baby loves his father. We are a complete family, as somebody beloved telling me, "a bud was born."
The fourth month of the baby's life
"Me and my baby, we are inseparable, just as I wore him in my belly.
He watches everywhere. When the sun comes into his eyes, he hides himself at my chest in the baby port, where he stays in the position of the frog. Discover the world.
I do not want an evening without being with him.
Concerning the birth, it has triggered self-analysis, but also the analysis of others."
The fifth month of the baby's life
"I'm a mother crazy after her baby. I'm like a hen that defends his chickens.
Since my baby started to roll, he prefers to sleep on his belly.
The baby is on the phase where he sits in the position of a swordsman in my arms."
The sixth month of the baby's life
"There are significant roles and small roles; now it depends on the perspective of everyone what role he thinks the other person has, if a particular purpose is substantial for someone, for someone else is small. My part is to raise, educate, and love my child. I do not see it differently, just like my baby takes my hand and puts his hands on my side and how I kiss him and how we both love each other, without seeing anything else around us.
I do not know if my role is big or small for humanity, but I see myself creating with my baby, for our family, and the other people.
I know my baby needs me so. I think the rest of the world could easily replace me and forget me.
This month I'm curious to see how the baby is eating solid food because it's something new for him as well as for me as a fresh mum.
I'm preparing my baby for sleep, but he sat down on the pillow with his knee flexed because he was standing with him on my leg. My baby smiled and waited with his arms and legs like a competitor at a marathon. He seemed to be waiting for the whistle to start the race.
Many years, brilliant eyes, six months old!"
The seventh month of the baby's life
"I love my baby very much. I dedicate myself to him.
I was going to start crying because of fatigue, bad, stress. Today, I spent a lot of time with my baby, and I did not rest at all.
I wish to have a quiet life.
I work for my baby.
I fight for him.
I am responsible for my baby's life since he was a fetus.
How happy I am because of maternity. I found my purpose. I'm a mother."
The eighth month of the baby's life
"My baby spends most of his time in the baby port; otherwise, he starts crying.
Before sleep, I sang a song, and my baby accompanies me.
The baby almost falls asleep. I said, "I love you," I lifted him in my arms from the pillow and put it over my chest. I told my baby again, "I love you," and I kissed him on his head. The baby lifted his head, looked at me, and started to laugh. I stimulated him, and now he was awake. I had to restart his sleeping.
In a visit, although there were 8-9 people in the room when my baby saw me, he got up on his knees and stretched his hands to me to pick him up from the people who surrounded him. I was impressed.
I sometimes wonder how fast the baby can memorize certain words, primarily because of the state of joy.
When you kiss the baby under the throat, the baby starts laughing.
I noticed that the baby jumps like a kangaroo with the kitchen chair to moves and advances a lot."
A funny story
"After the pregnancy, after the calcium loss, I had to get to the dentist. As no one was home, I took my baby with me. It was the most comical meeting at the dentist, and I felt like in a comedy movie, because the baby was not sitting well in his trolley. My baby stayed in my arms and pulled the wires from the dentist's equipment. He was also walked through the salon by a boy who wanted to have a brother very much."
The ninth month of the baby's life
"When I do my housework, my baby wants to join. When I pack clothes, the baby scatters them. When I cook, the baby plays with his teaspoon, his plastic plate, and the napkin box.
Out in the park, the baby looks around and falls asleep in the baby port.
In the evening, he falls asleep listening to my heart beatings, and I can not untie at all from my baby.
I look at my baby before he falls asleep, and I see the same "movement" of the hands, and of the feet up, the same moves I felt with very high intensity in the last two months of pregnancy. Now, he is quiet. He managed to fall asleep."
"I confess that starting in the month since I gave birth to my baby, it seems as time had stopped and that everything had preserved.
Being pregnant was the most beautiful experience and the most impressive personal experience. The birth was frightening. Immediately after birth, I was afraid, and I did not think I could experience another birth. But, after the pain disappeared, I felt that I desire to experience the three states again: before pregnancy, nine months of pregnancy, and nine months as a mother."
By AlicE
